Matsu!!! I am finally off my bed...was so tired when I reached home yesterday...
So...I fell asleep once I was done with my shower...haiz...I am becoming a pig... XD
Well...yesterday was a little depressing day...my english is like poop as always and A-maths test was urlgh...
I wish that I am as clever as those ppl in my class...why must we study such stuff? Like we going to use it next time.
=.= Will we like calculate like how we going to fall? Even the most stupid person will survive in the world. ._.
Okayokay...now to the fun stuff...hehehe... ;D Michelle and I went to the NDP rehearsal at Northbrooks Sec...
We were late cause we had to do our badgework before going...well...Ms Wong car was driving at 76km/h...
Saw it on the sensor thing at the road...XP Was really nervous when we were reaching... :x
The commander was like so cool...his commanding was like so W-O-W...Sigh...how I wish the commander for assembly can command like him...hahaha...XD Okays...we have normal static drill and a few marching with beloks...
Yeah...boring though...but fun with all the girls...Oh...we were introuduced to five more cool guys from SAF... XD
They are all so good looking...I remembered who is Eugene and Kelvin...the others didn't hear carefully...
Plus I am short...so can't see properly where Kelvin was pointing... =.=Mahhhnah...everything went well...
Just that Michelle and I weren't in any of the big groups of girls...so lonely...yeah...then we went back...
Yeah...we stayed in school for a while then time for homies...well...kinda tired though...
Everything is in such a rush...so tired that I want to stopand take a rest or even fall back and never get up...
Life is never ending...so yeah...live life as it is now...hahaha... ;D
Okayokay...there will be camp next wednesday and there will be speech day and NDP rehearsal coming soon...
Arhhhhh...lots of things...so got to jia you!!! Yeah...Jin Feng Fighting! >.<
Well...I am continuing from what happened today...yeah...okays...today at 8.30 to 9.30pm it was earth hour...
I off every electical stuff and it was pitch black and quiet at home...I was alone at home... ><.
So...I used my torch light as my light source and read my twilight book...kinda fun though...hahaha...XD
Okays...so I tried using my old and half spoiled CD player...it sucks to the core...I can't play anything...
Luckily there is a rideo in it so I could at least listen to the rideo...sigh...this is really bad...total quietness...
This can actually drive me crazy...total darkness and silence alone in your room...I was lucky...
It passed and my mum came home with my bro with donuts!!! >.<
I got to go for now...so...byes...sayonara... XD
Nature Rawks!!! XD
Saturday, March 21, 2009 || 10:31 AM
Matsu!!! These few days have been rather busy...Drill competetion, Camp, Physics Remedial...
Yeah...so my mum brought me out for a day...to relax...hahaha... ;D Finally a day with my family...
We went to the Children Botanical Garden...somewhere near Bukit Timah...it was newly built...yeah...
Luckily I was able to get in coz of my bro...I was overage...hehehe...XD The place was...cute...hahaha... :]
There were lots of plants...nice one...unlike the Botanic Garden near Orchard Road...they are lots of cute signs...
Its like kiddy world...hahaha...XD There was a wooden bridge...most of all there was a tree house...yeah...
Took some picture...felt really relax for once...next we went to Plaza Singapura to watch a movie...
Watched Marley and Me...was really touching...wanted to cry but too many ppl so pai seh...forced back all my tears.
><. Well...after that we had dinner...bought comics too...yeah...hahaha...XD Went home...sigh...I want to stay man...
Met a really nice man who played with my bro in the bus...the way he talked so cute...hahaha...XD
Well that's all...the paragraph below are just some random thoughts so yeah...don't mind...
Okay...here goes...
I feel that sometimes I am easily weavered by what ppl say...
Is it me? That I feel so left out...or is it I am so irritating that ppl leave me alone...
I am trying what happen in the past? Is there a hole in my heart?
Am I trying to forget about you? Or am I just tremortized by your presence?
Whatever you guys tell me is it true? Or is it the fake you that I have been seeing ever since I met you?
Are you throwing knives at my back? Who am I to you guys?
Am I that childish? Am I that irritating? Am I a act cute girl? Seriously if you want to figure me out...
There is a way...I will tell you my background...put yourself into my shoes and then you will noe why I am me...
I am from a simple family...like you guys I am once from a happy family...
But ever since primary 6...my family start to fall...imagine... a father who always go out with his friends to drink...
A mother who always go for lesson...leaving you alone with your brother...a brother who doesn't listen...
A mother who once locked your father out at home...finally he was let in...druken while crying...begging for your forgiveness...what will you do? That sence can't seem to get out of my mind...tormenting me everyday...
Finally they divorced...a sudden change of a blissful life...waking early in the morning just to reach school on time...
A nice and cozy home turn to a small sueezy home...three nutritious meal change to instant noodles most of it...
Everyday...there is a high possibilty that I may reach home late...or come home seeing my mother angry...
A chubby me turn to a less chubbier me...I cheerful me change to a less cheerful and quiet girl...
But there are friends...like michelle, stella, jennifer and joella...so I persevered on...
But ever since...secondary two...something happened...I was left out from all the conversation...
WHY? Okay...I was told that I overeact...and sometimes I emo...so...I changed...
I became more cheerful...less overacting...but still they left me out...what is wrong man?
I also can't understand? Why do guys call me act cute? Why? I am trying my best and this is what I get...
Don't you see a girl who heart is hurting behind all those cheerful smile? Don't you see the real me?
I am so tired...I want to go but I can't...I want to love yet I can't...I want to cry yet I can't...
No one there...I want to cry out loud but I can't...how I wish that someone who can just say well done jin feng to me...
These few days...lots of stuff happened...I just start feeling sad till I am numb to that feeling...soon it became hate
I started hating everything...now that I got this feeling that I may hate my friends...I am really scared...
I really hate myself too...I want to be loved...not to be make fun of and left alone... You may think I am crazy...
But...have you been in my situation before? You are probably popular within your friends so you don't...
If you are...don't give me those comments...it hurts you know...
Okay...now...I got to go so...byes...sayonara...oh yeah...please listen to my music playist...the first song... ;D
Sung by Seung Ri...its so nice...I like it when he played the piano and sing it...so cute...XD
Yeah...do enjoy the song... :]
A video to relax... XP
Wednesday, March 18, 2009 || 7:51 AM
Okay...here is a video of Big Bang and SNSD acting out a funny video...the ending was kinda funny and awkward...Yeah...coz they became gay I think...hahaha...XDI love the look only at me part...hehehe...Sueng Ri is so cool too...kyah...>.<>
Annual Camp... ;D
|| 1:46 AM
Matsu!!! I am back from my physics remedial...yeahyeah...was late today coz I overslept...XP
Okay...well...here is some updates on t drill competition and the annual girls brigade camp...
Yup...so here is how the three days two night went...tadahhhhhhhh...
DAY ONE
Reached school like a few mins late...always happen when I am going camp... =.=
Next was that I found out that my dear boots which was polished by Joe-one shiny, another one is like sheet... =.=
Okay...nice thing to start a day...luckily vivian said she will polish my boots...
After that we went to the campsite...met up with the 6th company who is having a combine camp with us... :]
My group was Patience, my group members:Stella, Sharon, Yuan Ting, Edna, Wei Ling, Shermaine, Priscilla and Jin Hui and at last me!!! XD
We had some icebreaking game...well...everyone was so quiet so me, stella and yuan ting did most of the talking...
After that we had our drill practice for the drill competition which was just a few hours away...XP So slack though...
Next was lunch...yummy...hehehe...then we rush back to our dorm to change to our full uniform...I feel so neat...
For the first time I am wearing my uniform so properly... ;D I feel so cool... o_O is it a proper word to descibe?
Well...when we reached Nee Soon campsite...whooo...I felt so hyper instead of nervous...I got this feeling...
Well...we waitd for our turn to have uniform inspection...when it was time...everyone was like so darn nervous...
My boots was like burning in the sun...too much kiwi jesslyn and isabelle [ but thanks alot to you two! hehehe...XD]
The officer was like sighing so much... =.= But anyway we went to wait for our cue to the drill thing...
Yeah...was waiting...kinda biting my nails though...then boom boom boom...our turn...arhhhhhhhh...DX
Okay...there were lots of ppl...next was that the song start playing...bang at the wrong time and salute wrongly too...
Next was that the slow march suck... =.= After that the silent drill was okay...but...worst thing was that static suck...
When our turn was over, I felt like crying but force back the tears for the others...yeah...I am strong...hahaha...XD
It started to rain when it was the second last group turn so they did the competition in the hall...so good... );
Okay so we fall in to get our results...when they were saying the results for C.O.P...all of us were like so nervous...
When they say finish the results we were so like whooo...then tadah...we got bronze for the drill competition...
Yeah!!! XD We were so happy...then the whole trip back was full of laughters...XD Celebration rocks man!!! ;D
DAY TWO
Woke up...still not enough sleep... ._. Haiz...then washed up then was the 5BX...feel energised after running...
Well I shall only tell the fun stuff so yeah...Okay...we played with angel clay...was so fun...hehehe... ;D
It was a competition...our group rocks...the cake look so yummy...hehehe...I love angel clay x]
The other groups clay was nice too...it looks so cool when they are all put together...whooo...XD
After that we had Dinner duty...I was the leader on that day so got to report to Ms Wang...almost fell when I turn...
Hahaha...clumsy me...oh...the food was super delicious too...next we got ready for special night...BOWLING!!! >.<
When we reached there...we got our bowling shoes and waited for our turn...there was a guy who played so well...
Hehehe...so handsome... >.<
Okay so we went to our lane and yeah...I was so darn happy when I hit 7 pins for my second throw...wooooo...XD
But I felt so pai seh when my ball always land with a BOOM when I throw it...XP It was so fun cheering for my friends
Most happiest thing was that I was able to hit all ten pins for two times...hehehe...everyone cheered for me...XP
I felt like I won something...oh...and Ms Wong teachd me how to throw it porperly...and it hit 9 pins for the first try...
Our group got 333 points altogether...and we got second for the competition...well done guys...XD
DAY THREE
The badgework today was the most fun of all...we get to play the olden days games...like chapteh and skipping rope
I have learnt how to skip when the rope is moving...you noe...when pp help you turn...yeah...it was so fun...
Oh...and playing chapteh was fun too...hahaha...XD Next was that we had the beauty peagnant...yeah...
Got no choice but to be the model...XP But seriously I am not worth to be...coz...yeah...but it was fun though...
Next was the presentation for our clay work...well...the other groups work were well present...hahaha... ;D
But I was kinda happy that Ms Yuen Peng praised me for the way I mould the clay...hehehe...though it is a little...
It has been ages since someone praise me...coz I have been recieving nothing but bad remarks...yeah...hahaha...XD
Then we went back to school...yeah...then me, stella, diana, mchelle, jennifer and vannesa went to J8 to eat...
Went to comic connection after that...bought comics...yeah...hahaha... :]
That is all for the whole GB camp...hope that we are able to meet with the 6th company again...hahaha...
Made lots of good friend there...will miss them alot...I am happy that I meet you guys...
Had alot fun while practicing for the drill competition...won't forget that...hehehe...XD
Test Results Sucks!!! :X
Monday, March 16, 2009 || 4:50 AM
[ drawing done by me in school... :D]
Matsu!!! I have received my report book...seriously...I feel like slaming my head on the wall... =.=
I got three fails on my report for the first time of my whole secondary school life...XP
I want to cry just like jasmine and the others but the tears just don't flow out...I have controlled myself to this point...
To this point that I can only put on a fake smile and encourage the others but end up being pushed away...><.
Well...no hard feelings...but seriously I am geting use to this...I am too numb to feel anything already...
Okay I am going to show you my results so don't faint in shock or what...yeah...so here is it...
1) English- E8
2) E-Mathematics- B4
3) A-Mathematics- D7
4) Chinese- A2
5) Physics- D7
6) Chemistry- B4
7) Biology- got something wrong with marks...
8) Combine Humanities- B3
Okayokayokay...yeah...shocked right...I am not worth to be a E1 student man...I am like a E4 or E3 student...
Now...drill competetion is coming so all the best for us...plus there is a camp too...hope I can survive...hahaha...XD
Hakushaku To Yousei ;D
Saturday, March 7, 2009 || 8:42 PM
Matsu!!! I am feeling realy sick now...snifff...I am having a bad sore throat... DX Yesterday I woke up with this bad sore throat...it was on friday when Ms Wong told us not to fall sick...=.= Damn it...Drill competition is on the next saturday...I hope I will be better by then... ;D Oh...and lately I have been seeing this anime...finally able to finish watching it...It is called Hakushaku To Yousei... It is this anime about a fariy doctor named Lydia. She is very pretty!!! >.<> Her life takes a 180-degrees turn when she meets a legendary blue knight count named Edgar and his crew. :] Yup...its so cool...able to see faries...oh and yeah there is a cool aquatic horse which is able to change into a human He is super cool...he is a funny too...whenever he tries to woo Lydia...hahaha...XD Okay...the short preview of it is at the top...hope you guys will watch it...it is really nice!!! >.<
Things never stay the same... :X
Friday, March 6, 2009 || 6:04 AM
Matsu!!! I am back from school...was having dinner with stella and rachel at J8 just now..
Yeah...so reached home kinda late...kinda scary while walking home though...hahaha...XD
We ate KFC and went to comics connection...hehehe...I bought shojo beat! XP
Well we had girls brigade today and got to wear full uniform...got my silver total defence badge and first aid ID
Okay...I got to say something...asking you: "Am I a clumsy person? Or I am a dumb person?"
Today I screwed up by saying congrtulations to Ms Wong when I my own is recieving my badge... o_O
So damn embarassing...haiz...another thing that happened this week was when I was sying Hi to hamizan...
I was walking down a step then...___...yeah...then after that he started laughing together with diana...
Well...I suppose that I will never get things right...hahaha...XD So thats me...can't help it but just laugh...
Today we had drill at guang yang...got to take public transport there...kinda cool though...wearing full U out...
Drill was kinda slack though...I hope everyone will be more serious...but be enthu at the correct time...yeah...
My slow march was sucky too...XP I want to improve...can't wait for drill stage three...wahahaha...XD
Oh...I got something I want to complain!!! Why can't Ms Wang let me go for NDP? Just because I have asthma...
That doesn't mean I will faint in the sun...I want to go so badly!!! >.<
Today was kinda a short time studying...during english michelle and I did our presentation on friendship...
Wooo...it was kinda easy though...ehehehe...just that I was not in the mood to smile at that time... ;(
The other lessons were kinda normal...just that I found out some shocking news...I must go for Physics remedial...
I failed the common test so yeah...I really can't understand what Mr Yeo is teaching...its so confusing...
I wonder how am I going to survive as a E1 student...I am already feeling so stress...I miss being Sec2...hahaha...XD
Okay...I suddenly thought of something when I was walking home just now... ;D
I was imagining what if I get kidnap and pushed intoa car while I was walking home...
Who will save me? How will the kidnapers look like? How will they threaten me?
Then I suddenly thought of the superman I drew in class today...tadaaaaahhhh!!! XD
"SUPERMAN COMES TO JIN FENG RESCUE!!! XD" Wakakaka...the evil kidnaper threaten to kill me...
Then BAM superman punch the evil kidnaper and started beating him to a pulp X(
Then superman swoops me up and sent me home...swooooosh... ;D
Or...maybe my superman is the not the old one but my kind of hero...ZERO!!! Kyah!!! >.<
He will go BANG BANG with his bloddy rose and the evil kidnaper is a level e vampire... XD
The end. I got to go for now so byes...sayonara... :]
