easy love

“Not your easy love”

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Saturday, March 21, 2009 || 10:31 AM

Matsu!!! These few days have been rather busy...Drill competetion, Camp, Physics Remedial...

Yeah...so my mum brought me out for a day...to relax...hahaha... ;D Finally a day with my family...

We went to the Children Botanical Garden...somewhere near Bukit Timah...it was newly built...yeah...

Luckily I was able to get in coz of my bro...I was overage...hehehe...XD The place was...cute...hahaha... :]

There were lots of plants...nice one...unlike the Botanic Garden near Orchard Road...they are lots of cute signs...

Its like kiddy world...hahaha...XD There was a wooden bridge...most of all there was a tree house...yeah...

Took some picture...felt really relax for once...next we went to Plaza Singapura to watch a movie...

Watched Marley and Me...was really touching...wanted to cry but too many ppl so pai seh...forced back all my tears.

><. Well...after that we had dinner...bought comics too...yeah...hahaha...XD Went home...sigh...I want to stay man...

Met a really nice man who played with my bro in the bus...the way he talked so cute...hahaha...XD

Well that's all...the paragraph below are just some random thoughts so yeah...don't mind...

Okay...here goes...

I feel that sometimes I am easily weavered by what ppl say...

Is it me? That I feel so left out...or is it I am so irritating that ppl leave me alone...

I am trying what happen in the past? Is there a hole in my heart?

Am I trying to forget about you? Or am I just tremortized by your presence?

Whatever you guys tell me is it true? Or is it the fake you that I have been seeing ever since I met you?

Are you throwing knives at my back? Who am I to you guys?

Am I that childish? Am I that irritating? Am I a act cute girl? Seriously if you want to figure me out...

There is a way...I will tell you my background...put yourself into my shoes and then you will noe why I am me...

I am from a simple family...like you guys I am once from a happy family...

But ever since primary 6...my family start to fall...imagine... a father who always go out with his friends to drink...

A mother who always go for lesson...leaving you alone with your brother...a brother who doesn't listen...

A mother who once locked your father out at home...finally he was let in...druken while crying...begging for your forgiveness...what will you do? That sence can't seem to get out of my mind...tormenting me everyday...

Finally they divorced...a sudden change of a blissful life...waking early in the morning just to reach school on time...

A nice and cozy home turn to a small sueezy home...three nutritious meal change to instant noodles most of it...

Everyday...there is a high possibilty that I may reach home late...or come home seeing my mother angry...

A chubby me turn to a less chubbier me...I cheerful me change to a less cheerful and quiet girl...

But there are friends...like michelle, stella, jennifer and joella...so I persevered on...

But ever since...secondary two...something happened...I was left out from all the conversation...

WHY? Okay...I was told that I overeact...and sometimes I emo...so...I changed...

I became more cheerful...less overacting...but still they left me out...what is wrong man?

I also can't understand? Why do guys call me act cute? Why? I am trying my best and this is what I get...

Don't you see a girl who heart is hurting behind all those cheerful smile? Don't you see the real me?

I am so tired...I want to go but I can't...I want to love yet I can't...I want to cry yet I can't...

No one there...I want to cry out loud but I can't...how I wish that someone who can just say well done jin feng to me...

These few days...lots of stuff happened...I just start feeling sad till I am numb to that feeling...soon it became hate

I started hating everything...now that I got this feeling that I may hate my friends...I am really scared...

I really hate myself too...I want to be loved...not to be make fun of and left alone... You may think I am crazy...

But...have you been in my situation before? You are probably popular within your friends so you don't...

If you are...don't give me those comments...it hurts you know...

Okay...now...I got to go so...byes...sayonara...oh yeah...please listen to my music playist...the first song... ;D

Sung by Seung Ri...its so nice...I like it when he played the piano and sing it...so cute...XD

Yeah...do enjoy the song... :]