Time changes everything, even you and I have changed

*Kiki bear!
Hiyum~ ^^ My name is Jin Feng.
From whitley sec, class 4E1
My Love- TVXQ YUNHO!♥
My Fave- B2ST KI KWANG!♥


-That's me

The rain, the winter spring has made us fade away


I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

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100 truths about me! ;D
Monday, June 22, 2009 || 9:15 AM

[he is so cool! ♥]
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage : Ice Lemon Tea
2. Last phone call : Pops ;D Happy Father Days!
3. Last text message : Are we eating together? You eating lunch?
4. Last song you listened to : Miduyho from DBSK♥
5. Last time you cried : Holding my moms hand in school "3

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice : Nope
7. Been cheated : As in?
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : Nope I never regret kissing my parents ;D
9. Lost someone special : Nope
10. Been depressed: Yeah...losta time...sigh...
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope...but was tipsy... x]

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Green
13. White
14. Yellow

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Of course! Lotsa them! XD
16. Fallen out of love: Nope
17. Laughed until you cried: Nope D; I want to...XD
18. Met someone who changed you: Think so
19. Found out who your true friends were: Maybe x]
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeah...but bear no grudges...
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Nope
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Some ;D
23. How many kids do you want?: Depends on my hubby! >///<
24. Do you have any pets : Use too...guppies...but died... ><.
25. Do you want to change your name?: Maybe...something easy for ppl to rmb... :]
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Eat with my family at swensens! ;D
27. What time did you wake up today: Going to 11 XP
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Online mass conver! Wohooo! x]
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: NDP next training! XD
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Born as a Korean or Japanese
32. What are you listening to right now: Bolero from DBSK♥
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope but Tommy yes...primary schoolmate
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Nothing at the momment
35. Most visited webpage: Youtube
36. Whats your real name : Jin Feng
37. Nicknames: Toto Chan (aloy and rengie)
38. Relationship Status: Single and happy! ;D
39. Zodiac sign: Capricorn
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Elementary?: PAP Kindergarden>>Learning Vision
42. Middle School?: Keming Primary School
43. High school/college?: Whitley Secondary School
44. Hair colour: Black
45. Long or short: Long
46. Height: 157cm "3
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yeah...yunho...♥
48: What do you like about yourself?: Dunno ;D
49. Piercings: Ear, left one
50. Tattoos: Nope
51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Yeah...my right ear...earring sunken in... ==
53. First piercing: Yeah
54. First best friend: Anyi
55. First sport you joined: Walking? Running?
56. First vacation: Australia, with my moms and pops
58. First pair of trainers: When I go to school

RIGHT NOW:
59. thinking something more simpler than 1+1 : ♥Yunho is so hot in the MV!
60. Drinking: Nothing
61. I'm about to: Type smth
62. Listening to: Wrong Number by DBSK♥
63. Waiting for: Nothing

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: Yeah ;D
65. Get Married?: Yeah ;D
66. Career?: Student now

WHICH IS BETTER : (I think is about the guy you like... XP)
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes, enticing one! ;D
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs, warm and securing one! :]
69. Shorter or taller: Taller! >.<
70. Older or Younger: Older! x]
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Depends on the situation! ;D
72. Nice stomach or nice arms : Arms, strong and sturdy! ^.^
73. Sensitive or loud: Dunno :/
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationships! :)
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant! ;D

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Nope
77. Drank hard liquor: Nope
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yeah, 3 times "3
79. Sex on first date: Nope, will NEVER happen
80. Broken someone's heart: Yeah...losta ppl...Sorry!
82. Been arrested: Nope
83. Turned someone down: Yeah
84. Cried when someone died: Nope, I think
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yeah...once...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Sometimes
87. Miracles: Yeah
88. Love in first sight: Depends
89. Heaven: Not sure
90. Santa Claus: Yeah...my parents...XD
91. Kiss on the first date: Depends
92. Angels: Yeah, was saved by one

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Nope
95. Did you sing : Yeah
96. Ever cheated on somebody relationship?: Nope
97. If you could go back in time, how far would go: Dunno
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it: 2nd June 2008 Set off for India.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yeah...but I have fallen unconciously...
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yeah...to be exact 96 qns...4 qns missing...XD

Okays...so I decided to add 4 more qns: (ask by mass conver group)
1. Do you like eggs scrambled or sunny side up?: Both! x]
2. Are you a bully?: Nope
3. What toothpaste do you use?: DARLIE! XD
4.Which day of the week do you like and why?: Saturday. NDP. ;D
Okok...mostly its dzul qns... ;D

NDP CCR4 and ROCKBAND! XD
|| 8:36 AM


Heyy! Sorry for not posting for a long time...was busy the past few days yeah... ;D
On saturday was the first NDP training at Marina Bay...kinda nervous on the way there...
When we reach there, lotsa ppl were there...performers and the contigent ppl... x]
We had lunch at the place where ppl can watch the Formula1 Race...was so cool! XD
We had free soya bean milk, free flow...wohoooo! 0^.^0 Singapore flyer was cool! :]
I want to sit on a ferris wheel if I had a chance...with a ♥special someone! :D
The marching was super tiring and the floating platform was hard to hentak on! "3
But manage to get the footing correct after many tries...XD It was really fun! >.<
We had dinner at 4...ridiculous...and the food was the same a last week lunch...==
Lotsa things happened but must keep a secret as told by the ppl! XD Hahahaha...
I hope you ppl will go see this year NDP! You will enjoy it! x] Oh...and smth more...
I DRANK GREEN TEA SOYA BEAN! XD It tasted like herbal tea but abit sweet... :]

Now...ROCKBAND! Hahaha...went out with the mass conver group yesterday...
We played at novena there...yeah...was real fun! :D But abit costly... T.T
Hahahaha...manage to improved playing the guitar...but my singing was terrible...
But...one song I got the highest score! Ahahaha...the others are old song so yeah...
I was mummbling and laughing all the way...so...hahaha...XD FAILED! "3
Oh...the mass conver ppl were awesome! There were free cake too!
I ate ♥chocolate cake! Hehehehe x] It was super delicious! Yummy! X3
After that we went to eat burger king...ate the kiddy meal with diana... ;D
Was yummy, I got a chef toy and diana got a bunny toy which look like pui soon XD
Then...we like roam around for awhile then yeah...went back home coz nth else to do...
Went to pay my respect to my neighbour who passed away...so yeah...sad...
I hope he will rest in peace and be happy in heaven...okokok...I sound weird... :/
I got to go for now so byes...sayonara... :D

Dance,Subaru! ♥
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 || 9:14 AM



Omg!!! I so wana see this movie!!! XD DBSK will be in it!!! ;D Plus I love both of its theme song!!! The actress is so pretty. She is actually a model, well, she went under tough and special training off ballet just to get the post the main actress in this show. I will envy and admire her...hahaha... ;D Her ballet is really good! x] Oh...this movie is actually originated from a manga...I think I am going to read it...wakakaka...XD Anyways...if there is a DVD or CD of the movie I am sure to buy when I have the money...but I want to see the movie in cinema!!! Arhhhhh....XD


Singapore Arts Festival ;D
Monday, June 15, 2009 || 4:46 AM

Hey! Yesterday was a fun day! Was out in the morning for chem tuition at mum's friend's house.

Hahaha...XD My mum friend is a good teacher...was able to understand stuff when she teaches.
Was well fed by my mum's friend...hahaha...I had lunch there...chicken rice! XD Can't resist... XP
I manage to finish my chemistry homework except for one worksheet...was late so didn't continue...


I met up with my mother at yishun...she wanted to see the last fireworks of the Arts Festival... ;D
Yishun had a new mall... o.O Was really big and filled with people...almost got squeeze to death...
Anyways...the fireworks was COOL AND AWESOME! The ppl were dressed up like firemen... ;D
The fireworks were up closed and loud! O_O Before starting the person said:"whatever goes up comes down."
Then BOOM! It was so cool...oh and there was one near me...scared the hell out of me... "3
Suddenly got small pieces of red paper came falling down...then someone said:"Mid-year HONG BAO!"


Hahahaha...XD Then everyone was like trying to catch it then suddenly one landed on me...lols... x]
There was a part a woman appeared on the "stage"..."My mother once said that take a risk before...'
I kinda forgot...then she like suddenly started stripping... ._. Until she only left with a swimming costume...
Hahahaha...XD Someone even ask her to continue... x] Then she repeated:" My mother once told me..."
"Not to take of my clothes infront of ppl"said one of the ppl Fireworks start to appear near her...
It was damn F**king cool!!! Ok...so I was kinda hyper when I saw that...ahahaha...XD Sorry... "3
After that were the colourful fireworks...it ended fast..sigh...but I enjoyed my time...
I got to go for now so byes...sayonara... :D

The mask that I wear.
Monday, June 8, 2009 || 8:27 AM


Your mask is Beauty. You are beautiful inside and out.
You aren't too aware of your beauty, although all the people around you are.
There are times when you feel like you're wearing a mask,
but no one around you can notice the difference with or without it.
You may feel vulnerable at times, but you usually get through it.
You sometimes wish you had someone to help you through those tough times,
but you are always hopeful and don't give up easily.
People who first meet you notice your beauty oat a glance,
but most people notice it when they get to really know you.

{ I hope if this is really true, but it is all fake.}

Cinderella, that's not me.
|| 1:11 AM



"Can I...trust this guy again?"
"Stop tempting, other me-the black side of me."
"Love is said to be one pleasure and a thousand sufferings."
"I've chosen to free myself from a thousand sufferings rather than enjoying one pleasure."
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
Feelings I have is always forced to do the opposite. Why is it so?
Wanting to be notice,trying my very best. But yet shun by others.
Working hard to get something I want. Yet others who didn't work hard for it get it.
I want to cry, I want to let out my bottled feelings. Yet I can't...why?
I don't want my friends to feel sad. Or probably no one can even see me crying.
I am being named a crybaby even when I don't cry that much. Can you tell me why?
I treat you as a friend yet you wanted to cross the line. Every each of you are my friends.
I don't want to hurt you yet you made me to. Everything is never the same. I'm sorry.
Yet on the other hand, knowing that I shouldn't be doing the same. I did the same.
His enticing smile, eyes and laughter. I fell into a trap unable to wake from this slumber.
When I am happy, I laugh and smile, I forget about the sadness I enjoy life.
When I am sad, I bottled up my feeling, sometimes crying all alone. Wondering...
Why am I always left alone? Where is love when I need it? What is happiness?
Sigh...I am tired...I really want to stop bottling all my feelings...I want to let it out...
But who will allow me to? I want to do this but I am allowed to only do that...

Class Outing and Chalet :D
Sunday, June 7, 2009 || 9:39 AM

[credits to the photographer of NDP...]

Matsu! Sorry for not posting anything the past few days... D: I am really sorry...
I was busy the past few days...schedule fully packed...holidays just don't seem so...
Last Saturday I had NDP training, on last sunday I had class outing with 3E1'09...
On monday I had Class chalet till tuesday, On wednesday I had to do flag day...
On thursday I had NDP training for GB one, on friday I had GB sergeant weekend...
On saturday I had GB sergeant weekend and NDP training...arhhhh...no rest...
Finally today I have some rest! XD A good rest for a tired little girl... X3 Yeah...
Okays...today's post is mainly focused on the events...okok...lets get started... ;D
NDP training was tiring but fun...this time we were praised...we improved in drill! x]
The weather is hot like usual and I got tanner! Yeah... XD On my way to nicely tan me! :D
Ohhh...I can't wait man! :3 Well...someone is as enticing as ever...sigh... "3

Okays...now to the class outing! XD I love 3E1! ♥ During the outing we really bonded as a class.
Well...I roller bladed for 4 hours so I got a swollen sprained ankle...lols...explainable...XD
But the 4 hours of roller blading was the best...Nat, Diana, Poh Hui, Nassera, Matthew, Mark, Loh Ting,
Zi Feng, Claire...all roller blading together...I was happy that some have learnt how to roller blade... :]
During that time I managed to learn to blade faster! Wohooo... x] Can't wait to blade again... >.<
The BBQ was okok...hahaha...coz I was too tired to eat anything...but I ate marshmallows...yummy!
The next day I went for the 2E2'08 class chalet...was abit fun...but our class was not that bonded...
We had some dispute and something mean was said about me...so I had a different point of view now...
I did enjoy the time I spent with some of my friends and classmates but this chalet made realise smth
The feeling of being left alone even after how hard I try to fit in...so yeah...I have concluded... D:
This class chalet and the class outing make me change views of my classmates and friends...
Some friends are by name and not real, some classmates are more than what you think... :D

Now to the Flag Day, it was the worse I have ever been...the ppl in Ang Mo Kio are the worse...
They are so scary...ignoring you or giving you a *what you want?* look on their face...
So scary that I cried... "3 So...my fear of human became bigger...sigh...what should I do?
Never mind...don't talk about it le...now to the NDP GB training...okays...I got one word to describe it
"BELOK" One whole training with nothing but belok...don't you feel sick and tired? I almost can die...
My arms ache from the marching but the army officer who came ask us to continue even after 5.30
The time when we suppose to go home le...sigh...sometimes I wonder why do they torture us?
Next, sergeant weekend...was fun and interesting...met my friends I made in corporal's camp! XD
After that I went for the SL campfire...was fun...enjoyed my time...but went home late... "3
Woke up late the next day...rushed to PLMGSS in taxi...but the taxi driver dunno the way...
Was driven around in circles until it was like 9plus that we finally reached...waste time and money... DX
Was asked out for NDP after listening to the talk halfway...sigh...but NDP was really fun...