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Cinderella, that's not me.
Monday, June 8, 2009 || 1:11 AM
"Can I...trust this guy again?"
"Stop tempting, other me-the black side of me."
"Love is said to be one pleasure and a thousand sufferings."
"I've chosen to free myself from a thousand sufferings rather than enjoying one pleasure."
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Feelings I have is always forced to do the opposite. Why is it so?
Wanting to be notice,trying my very best. But yet shun by others.
Working hard to get something I want. Yet others who didn't work hard for it get it.
I want to cry, I want to let out my bottled feelings. Yet I can't...why?
I don't want my friends to feel sad. Or probably no one can even see me crying.
I am being named a crybaby even when I don't cry that much. Can you tell me why?
I treat you as a friend yet you wanted to cross the line. Every each of you are my friends.
I don't want to hurt you yet you made me to. Everything is never the same. I'm sorry.
Yet on the other hand, knowing that I shouldn't be doing the same. I did the same.
His enticing smile, eyes and laughter. I fell into a trap unable to wake from this slumber.
When I am happy, I laugh and smile, I forget about the sadness I enjoy life.
When I am sad, I bottled up my feeling, sometimes crying all alone. Wondering...
Why am I always left alone? Where is love when I need it? What is happiness?
Sigh...I am tired...I really want to stop bottling all my feelings...I want to let it out...
But who will allow me to? I want to do this but I am allowed to only do that...
